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I love that pretentious shiz where you tumblr and listen to indie music and wear ohmazing clothes all day reading Kafka and philosophy like that. But half the time real life catches up with me and YES i do listen to indie music and tumblr and wear shirts as dresses but I also wanna learn how to rap and play chess and wake up early. I know, I'm indecisive like that, yo. Life's pretty boring and amazeballs, making me confused and sleepy half the time, but I party well awake at three in the morning 'cause that's how I live. Oh, did i mention, I happen to love curry mee? And pop culture references are awesometastic.

Yeah, I’m a dreamer!



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When in doubt (?)

Friday, September 18, 2009 @ 1:22 AM

And sometimes, when I don't hear people tell me what to do or just a subconcious imagery of what I'm programmed to do, I just eat chocolate and watch a movie. Tell me, is that a waste of time or just a distraction? Because I doubt that I'll go about doing things I'll regret when I follow this, cause then I won't have to think much, if not at all, so I can stop reading between the fading lines for once, because then I won't see anything and that'll be like homemade music served in a piping hot cookie tray. Exactly, no i mean the feeling you get when you bake and the first time you pull out the tray from the oven and it smells so good. You can barely imagine that you made all that, but you've just spent hours kneading the dough and everything and you deserve a piece of everything. And it even smells so good, even through the sweat and your hands ache you still can't blame the double chocolate chip wonders for them cause you can't find fault over them anymore. So, that's what I thought about you coming back into my life. Oh, much ado over a cookie.

So, there's no telling! =)

off to watch wizards of waverly place, the movie
off to watch VforVendetta
off to Mines
off to loving the person you are

Tell me why i'm distracted by repetition

Monday, September 14, 2009 @ 5:49 AM

I'm anxious, like if there's never gonna be enough days for me, and darn I keep feeling melancholic so maybe one of these days I'll wake up and get it out if my system, but it's not very easy waiting. I never want anyone to understand.


Shanan's like all mbledju udlemjb lbemujd jumbled.


i'm numb.

a sleepless frenzy you put me in

Friday, September 11, 2009 @ 10:44 AM

Thou shall not speak of things thou HAVE NO IDEA OF.

"If you don't tell lies, you never have to remember anything."

Lately, often enough, this irks me, probably more than the conventional human being. It's not like if you talk about it, soon enough you'd actually get it. You'd just tuck it away, in a mini corner of your mind, like a stagnant immovable rock and when it starts to float to the surface, you just push it down again. It won't stay down for long, but it's weighted down by lies and factual errors that you don't even care to correct. So don't cower in cowardice, because when you start to distort the truth, there's nothing worth hearing from you anymore.


Shanan says: "That's my philosophy."


It's two in the morning and I'm trying to make sense of the world which I will one day rule, ahem, if you permit me to that is, humbly I say. Yet I dunno, there's something about a VforVendetta-ish righteousness about me. I guess that's permanent (ha-ha) and that too, is the motivation for me to scream for what I believe in. =D
God, I sound like a haiku-blogger. In the very loose sense of the word... and, oh, bumped my head in an almost-blackout frenzy at school today (ouch). It bled and stuff...Basically it happened for about 5 reasons:

1. The fumes from heating chemicals
2. The curry mee and the calamari and the soup (not possible)
3. Lack of sleep
4. Improper sense of direction
5. Was channeling all my energy into observing how the crystals filter

nuh. maybe i'm just a freaky mess. haha, fat chance! =D
I'm still as perfect as ever.

peace. xoxo.

Sometimes, occasionally...

Wednesday, September 9, 2009 @ 6:36 AM


I like listening to change, and now I just realized that you're not coming back, and it is all that it seems.

will be back, writing in pen instead of fiddling with keys. with love and i miss this blog so muj.

"And I will do a favour, the last one, when I start counting the seconds and minutes and hours, and maybe my prison will be walking through the world alone, but I never doubted you. And that is because I never will."

TO THE FUTURE! (with all VforVendetta-like enthusiasm)

Thursday, September 3, 2009 @ 6:42 AM

So I'm finally updating...

First things first, I'll link everyone in time, k? =)

And well, much has been happening...In school, life and everything. So sometime I still sit and wonder but not so often nowadays cause I rarely have time for that. Maybe I'd rather lose myself in music and love and moisturizer. Tons of it, in a mishap at school.

"SO this is how life has been!"

will be back...

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